We are in the process of buying a house and my husband finds out his job is being outsourced.
So needless to say things have been a touch stressful lately :-(
Luckily he was offered his same job with the company that it was out sourced to, a small pay cut and HUGE cut in benefits but it was still enough to proceed with the house.
Since the news there have been many tension filled days. But the evidence has never been greater that happiness and peace are 99% perspective.
My husband worries, and worries, and worries, he spends sleepless nights worrying, his tension and discontent is palpable. I rarely ever lose sleep and generally have calm in my heart and head. For me I trust that God will protect and provide for me. Not in the "I'll just sit around and wait for God to make my life perfect" kind of way, but in the I'm not going to be homeless, there will be food to eat kind of way. Even through the darkest valleys when I look back God was with me all the way, I never went hungry even if the help came in the form of food stamps or an anonymous gift, our rent got paid even if a family member paid it. Looking back now I see how God used those hard times to humble me and help me see that I alone am cannot "fix" my life, I need the divine grace and presence of God in my life to guide me and protect me. Through this I have peace no matter what the storm. Even though I rarely know HOW God is working in my life I know that he is, there is SOMETHING bigger than me at work always.
This gives me peace not in my circumstances but in spite of my circumstance.
But the person without faith, the person who feels alone to try to manage this crazy (and sometimes VERY unfair) world is left worrying themselves sick and spending nights awake.
My life is not perfect, my relationships are not perfect but I choose to be happy, I choose to have peace. It took years of learning how to let things go before I got to this point but now that I am here I feel so blessed to have peace.
