Another begining...

Been away to long, so sorry.
Brief summary of events.....
Child still doesn't sleep through the night, husband diagnosed with cancer in October 2010, treatment in December 2010 and on March 28, 2011 is now in full remission.

I truly believe that happiness is a decision followed by an action. You cannot "say" you are going to be happy and it just happens, you must MAKE whatever is happening, happy for you. Happy people are not that way because life dealt them a better hand, on the contrary most have overcome hardships that would have broken someone else. They are happy because they view the hardships in their lives as growth, take them as they come and then celebrate the joys fearlessly. At thirty I finally look back over my life, even the parts that used to make me cringe, cry, or flush with shame with a balanced view, grateful that I have lived long enough to look back at all. What has transpired in my past did form who I am today. There is a relationship that will most likely always be broken and I am at peace with that. However with each action of my day I make a choice about how I am going to live now. Yes I still have bad days and feel beat down and want to just give up, and sometimes for an hour or a day I do. Then it is time to re-evaluate the situation and mostly MY VIEW on the situation because that is all I can truly control.
So I am going to choose to spend the rest of my day focusing on my sweet little boy who is sick and letting him know by word and deed that he is my joy and my life.